Friday, June 25, 2010

One!

This whole post is Backwards!! So if you want to start at the bottom you can!









I guess I've waited long enough to post about Cates First Birthday. I've learned a couple of things since this special day BUT first heres a part of a journal entry I wrote the day before her "big day"

June 3 2010
"Tomorrow Cate is one. I'm sad, so sad. I dont' want her to grow out of my arms and hugs and kisses! I want my baby to be my baby forever! I know its something that just happens and its gotta happen and gonna happen, but, right now its hard."

Hahahha So dramatic! Looking back it WAS tough.

But... I've learned now that its awesome!! I've learned tht I LOVE her growing and learning more and more everyday! I've learned that I love seeing little teeth pop out of her gums. I love watching her silly walk. I love listening to her carry on conversations that no one can understand. I've learned that I love watching her search for and point out her belly button. I love the way she needs me even though she is ''growing up". I love that she can actually say about 20 words (maybe more) and she knows how to use them. I've learned that she ALWAYS will be my baby and she will ALWAYS fit in my arms and she better not EVER grow out of my hugs and kisses! I've learned that she will always love me, even when she's 1!!
Anyways! Cate had a fun water party at the park! Lots of friends came and that made it special!

Thanks everyone!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Motivation

Soooo....I haven't lost any more weight. I go up and down 5lbs all the time. I don't have that drive that helped me lose the weight that I have lost, and I miss it!!! How do I get that back!?!? Every time I have lost weight my body and brain stop at this point, the weight I am at right now. With out that motivation that got me this far I give up too easily. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE..any advice?!