Blessed!

I truly stand all amazed! Our Heavenly Father is so loving and gracious! 

My Sweet Gramma is a hard working (addiction recover therapist), strong, intelligent, artistic, compassionate, independent, young (67 yrs) woman! The beginning of this year she started dealing with really bad vertigo and nausea and a little memory loss. One of her biggest fears is Alzheimer's Disease. She lives in Canada (Grr Don't get me started on their medical system!!) and went to the doctor, they told her that she had a bladder infection, gave her some meds and left it at that. As a few months went on her memory was getting worse. She would forget silly little things but knew and could understand that she was forgetting those things so it was very frustrating for her!! It was getting bad enough that she wanted to be seen again to figure out what was going on. At this appt they told her she had been having strokes  and SENT HER HOME (I was so mad about that!! She needed to be monitored1) they did take her drivers license away and she couldn't work anymore. This was soo sad for her! Like I said she is a hard working independent woman. Work was a huge part of her life. She loved her clients and did so much for them. A month later she was getting worse and got shivers really bad often and randomly and at this point the words she used were starting to not make sense. She went to the ER and they kept her for about a week and said that she had meningitis. And Sent Her Home! A week or so later she was rushed by ambulance to the ER again because she kept falling a sleep and couldn't even recognize her husband. She was completely out of it! This time by looking at a CT scan the "stroke" was actually a tumor. A very aggressive fast growing Tumor most likely to be a Glioma (that is just the shortened name..Don't know how to spell the real name!). A terminal Cancer. The doctors in Canada told her husband and my uncle that they could choose to have a biopsy done if we wanted to....but.... she only had 2 months to live. We were shocked, scared, sad, upset, torn. Torn because during this process since the beginning of the year my Gramma received 2 priesthood blessings that were not in harmony with this diagnosis. My faith struggled. At times I felt let down and lied to and I felt like the faith I've had in blessings was a little naive. BUT I felt deep inside that this wasn't right, Heavenly Father has sent us many medical miracles that can prolong the life of many! Her husband, my mom and uncle and her sister felt the same. They immediately started calling hospitals in Utah. Hunstman Cancer Institute read over all of her reports and gave us much better news! Not great news..but better news. They told us that the CT Scan did look like a Glioma but that there was NO way to diagnose that just by looking at the CT scan. (The neurosurgeon said he thought it was 50/50 tumor/something else) They also told us that they could do surgery (the 19th) and remove as much as they can IF it is a tumor and go from there with what the next steps are. If it is a Glioma she can have another 1, 2, 3, 4 5, maybe even more years with us!

I KNOW that Heavenly Fathers hands are in this and that he has prepared each and every step of this path perfectly. Even if it doesn't go the way we want it to go and even though It is hard and scary and sad He is in control and my Gramma is teaching us so many things by this hard experience in her life. God is good and gracious! My Gramma is at peace and happy. She has the desire and strength to live on and teach and help many more and I think its possible. 

Hopefully on this earth with us. 

 I am so thankful for her and her example to me and my family.